Natalicious

Breaking a habit, stepping out of the safe zone.
It feels strange and unusual..
Loneliness is creeping up behind me, nagging me in the back.
Stop it!

I don't wanna say goodbye, that's not my intention.
I wanna talk, laugh, embrace...
Damn the feeling of missing someone!
At least in this case..

Everything's so complicated.
I feel like I'm losing a very precious friend.
Do I have to?
Is that the way it's going to be?

Fucking confusion, give me some clarity anyone?
I'm feeling good enough to go to work now, but I constantly feel like something's missing.
Am I even allowed to have these thoughts and feelings?
Does it make me sound like a schizo bitch?

Wow, my mind's a blur..
My head is filled with so many questions.
My blog has turned emo despite the overly cute design.
I've turned sad despite being one of the most laughing persons in the entire world.
Nothing makes sense, what's going on?
Someone wake me up from this weird dream already..

I don't even know what I'm saying.. or writing.
Focus, focus, focus... focus?
Focus means what now again?
Someone give me a 1on1 please...
1 on 1... wan... I hope he feels OK soon.
I hate to see him this way.
I wish we could skip this whole thing and be friends ...
See each other, have sushi, movie nights, talk, hang out, have fun...
Guess it's possible it might never be that way.
I'm torn...


Anyway, sorry for being this way, but I can't really help it right now.

Please don't stop loving me <3